31 August 2009
it’s a “class” to learn more about yourself as a blogger, as a writer, as someone who creates. it sounds perfect for me. i can’t promise to be perfect (ok, seriously, let’s be honest, i haven’t been a very good blooger… well, ever…. i always want to be but i think i get scared to bare things to the virtual world. i also have to admit that i’ve been horrendous with my journal upkeep lately as well).
but to begin. i must do at least part of my “homework” for day 1….
first, i’m supposed to think of a writing project that i want to do, and then write 10 steps to begin it.
OR, i’m supposed to think about what my name would be if i were a character in my own book.
OR, i’m supposed to describe my inner self and outer self.
OR, i’m supposed to make a list of writing projects I’d like to do someday.
OR i’m supposed to write a blog post about why you have a blog.
is it bad that all of the choices overwhelm me? i work with students with autism in everyday job… and choice is always something that we like to give the students. but we’re very strategic about how we do it. we don’t give them TOO many choices, because that could be overwhelming, but we want to give them enough choices to give them enough autonomy to OWN their choice. to make it something of their own.
which, i think was the intention.
but i’m overwhelmed with where to begin. i could write about why i have a blog– but i don’t know why i have a blog. actually, i kind of do. i have a blog because i admire so many people with a blog. there’s Real Life friends that i know that have blogs that i’m jealous of the way that they upkeep and record their adventures (an make their very own blogs/webpages for thesis projects)– and then there’s people that i “know” in Online Life. people i admire greatly, who inspire me all of the time, who make me want to be better. do i comment on those people’s blogs?
which makes no sense.
because i really do want my own set of blog friends, of people who i actually feel comfortable enough with to comment on, who comment on my blog (is it bad that i feel a sense of rejection if i comment on someone else’s something and they don’t comment back about MY comment? how ridiculous is this conversation?).
but i’m scared. i’m scared that i’m not good enough, that they won’t like me, etc.
and then i back away from the upkeep of THIS blog.
orange in the middle of the table.
tell me everything, as it was
in the beginning.
i love margaret atwood. i’ve always found her to be extremely inspiring.
to end my Very Random Post….
a list of writing projects i would like to complete someday:
1. write a novel. yes, it really is that vague.
2. write several short stories from adventures that happened to me while studying abroad
3. keep a blog, at least somewhat regularly.
4. and academically– publish my dissertation in a journal. it’s submitted right now– cross your fingers for me, everyone.
everyone…. whoever you are.
(i’m too nervous to give this address to anyone i know in real life, except emily has it, and maybe liz too.)