26 May 2008
i don’t like to be jealous, but the emotion of envy seems to be one that i repeatedly return to. right now, all i can do is read and refresh the blogs and twitters of my sister and her travel partner to live vicariously through them. you ask, didn’t i already have my turn?
then, it turns into the chicken-egg dilemma. yes, i had my turn, but i feel as if i didn’t appreciate it enough at the time. isn’t that the story of my life? and as i sit and lament about times past and things i should’ve gotten more out of at the time, i miss the present times.
i am always in another place, either in the future or the past. i am rarely in the present, and that is something that needs to be changed.